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The end of an era

2011-06-10T00:53:00.001+10:00

It's started, and I'm not just talking about my exams.
:/
Anywho on to less ambiguity, this'll be my last post everrrrrrrr on this blog (:

But before I begin to start the intro to the end, it was my birthday a couple of days ago!
I HAVE NOW BEEN ALIVE FOR A MIGHTY NINETEEN YEARS.
HO HO HO.
Unfortunately, as we're all in the midst of an evil tyranny of exams, it was a day spent studying. But hey, adding more to your knowledge bank is the only thing money can't buy, so it's got to be the best present ever right? ehhehe!

On this very interesting day, I actually had a little visit from two pesky children a.k.a. JZ and G at midnight.
Sweetieeeess they are haha (:
Then I had another visit from JZ and Viktor later on in the last hours of the day.
ROAR.
Thanks for making me feel special guys ♥!
Each and every birthday message means a lot to me, even if it's a couple of words, and it doesn't matter if it's late either, because belated messages make my birthday even longer than the usual 24 hours xD

So I was initially going to close this blog so that so no one would ever be able to read my ramblings ever, ever, ever, ever. It's like this place wouldn't even exist!
But then that'll be like deleting all of the memories I've recorded in the last year and a bit, ever since I ended highschool. And I don't want to deprive the awesomeness this blog has been able to provide to the internet world either, so ultimately the only way to solve this dilemma is to shout out in my head... the next three words.. IT'S STAYING, BEETCHES.

Hmm reasons to close this?
At first I couldn't really put an exact finger on it, but in explaining it to my friend, words started shietting out of nowhere and here is, I believe an adequate response to the question.

[12:28:33 AM] aMANDA Lalala: but everytime i go back onto there, i feel like i have to assume another identity when i write stuff because it's as if the blog already has it's own style of posts that i have to adhere to
[12:28:50 AM] aMANDA Lalala: and lately i haven't been able to write how i used to anymore

I'm not quite sure if any of that makes sense to you guys, and it's okay if it doesn't.
I think I've just not been me lately, or feeling like myself.. MAYBE I'M MATURING.
OH NO. ADULTHOOD IS NOW HERE. SADFACE.
Or it could just be the exam stress.
HMMMMZOR, IN WHICH CASE AFTER THE EXAMS I'LL BE BLOG-LESS AND EVEN MORE SAD.
..AHH SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHII.....

So to anyone who stumbles upon this, I'm sorry but you simply HAVE to read all of my posts from the beginning and turn its stories into legends about how a little, passive and inhibitive girl turned into a strong, mighty, fearsome and mystical warrior known as the awesome amanda, (or any other ass-kicking name you guys can think of).

MAKE THEM INTO GOOD STORIES WHERE I FLY IN WITH MR. T ON A HELICOPTER, OKAY?
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

HAHAHAAHAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAAUHDSOIUFHUIHADFHAIUOFHDSIUFSIGFULDSGHFILUDSHFIULDSHFIUGDSLIFUDSFHSDIUFHD
But seriously, guys.
You have to do it.

GOODBYE DEAR LOVERS, STALKERS, FRIENDS AND RANDOM PEOPLE FROM EVERYWHERE.
And welcome to my blog.

BAI(forever).

2011-06-08T21:27:00.000+10:00

This subject is so painful, I feel like crying :(

I like big butts

2011-06-05T19:21:00.000+10:00

A sign that you've been eating too much chocolates and junk food?

When your bin smells like chocolatey goodness from all of the chocolate wrappers you've put in there.

IT SMELLS SO GOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDD BRO!

so.

good.

*wipes tear from eye*

In other news,

LOL WHERE DO PEOPLE COME UP WITH THESE?
I WANT I WANT I WANT LOL

BAI.

To pee, or not to pee.

2011-06-04T21:25:00.001+10:00

Today I have learnt that a hormone in the hypothalamus as well as in the posterior pituitary gland, known as Vasopressin or ADH, aids in water reabsorption and the constriction of blood vessels.

That's why we don't pee everywhere, guys!

:D!

Good on ya, Vasopressin!
YOU DO YOUR THING, DAY IN AND DAY OUT.
HELP ME NOT PEE ALL THE TIME.

2011-06-04T00:46:00.002+10:00

Maybe sometimes,
We feel afraid but it's alright,
The more you stay the same,
The more they seem to change.. don't you think that's strange?

And freedom is the reason, you can't take it without a fight

2011-06-02T21:35:00.000+10:00

I just stuffed my face with a bunch of grapes and my brother asks:
"Have you been studying?" LOL
Yes. Excessive binge eating is usually if not always associated with massive cramming.
OMNMOOMMMO.
But due to an unexpected twist in the conversation, here I am, going to relay to you a continuation of the above question posed.

Bro: "Have you been studying?"
Me: "Hmm, well my hair is a mess, my face is all grossed out with food, and I'm wearing grandma clothes.."
Bro: "Oh.. but you still look pretty though.
Me: *MASSIVE NAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWS*

HAHAHAHA.
What a cute little person.

Also.
I've put on about 3kgs of weight LOL .. in the space of like what, hmm, 4 days?
I'm pretty sure other people are going through this binge-eating/exam stress/I want to stab a teddybear kind of experience right now too LOL.. It really is a huge wonder how we all make it out alive after all of these one month periods.. HAHHA

Me^

BAI.

2011-05-31T19:03:00.000+10:00

HEY GUYS
I HAVE EXAMS NEXT WEEK!
LET'S GO CLUBBING HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHUDSUDHUASIHFDIUFHDSUFHDSUHFDSIULFGDSIFHDLS

Still, I wonder why it is

2011-05-30T17:46:00.000+10:00

♥

Trying to be my misery

2011-05-26T21:36:00.000+10:00

You know how things just die out, no matter how much effort you've invested into it over the years, nothing you do can really help stop it from reaching its inevitable end?
Yeah, that's exactly how blogging feels like to me now.
I was reading over my old posts and man, do I write a lot of crap HAHAA.
I also tend to shout in my head a lot in my posts.
Must've been on a real high all those times or something, because I swear I don't shout that much... oooh or maybe I used to but the passage of time has changed me :(
LOL. Where the frick did that line just come from?
NOOO I'M STILL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE RARARAR!

Anyway, today was the last day of my university classes in Melbourne for the year.
AHHHHH as monumental as that may seem, I slept in and skipped my first tutorial and came half an hour to my second...
Hi guys, aren't I cool? LOL
But nah, I'm not that bad.
As I was walking towards my tutorial, I bumped into Jeremy, who just so happened to have just left the tutorial. He said that class lasted only 10 minutes today and people were just doing unit evaluations.
LOLLLLLLL TEN MINUTES WHAAAAAAAAAA!>
So I was like, shhhhhhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitake mushrooms, I missed class!?
I started walking at a faster pace, hoping to catch the tutor so I could at least get my attendance marked.. SEE.
I'M A GOOD STUDENT. (Y)
Interestingly enough, I realised my outfit today resembled that of a school girl's.
LOL I LOOKED LIKE A SCHOOL GIRL ON THE LAST DAY OF UNI.
Oh the irony I cannot fathom to elaborate on.
But here goes anyway HARHARHAR!
My big blue jumper, (stolen from my dad, thanks dad :D) sort of looks like my highschool jumper and the collars make me look slightly retarded.
Observe.

And to top it all off, I used this red ribbon JZ gave me (recycling prowess at bay, people) and made a bow out of it to put in my hair.

LOLOLO.
And sorry guys but I think it's my duty to mention that I have a billionrillionzillion pimples on my face. I don't want my face to lie to you because it does that sometimes :/
NB. YOU GUYS PROBABLY CAN'T SEE THEM IN MY PREVIOUS PICTURES, SO I'LL POINT THEM OUT FOR YOU BECAUSE I'M NICE LIKE THAT.

I. Know. Right.
I can't ever step out of my house during the day time anymore. Instead, I have to wear a paper bag with eyeholes over my head so I can save humanity from witnessing such a devastating image of atrociousness which could lead to the next of our very many judgment days.
BUT ON AN EVEN MORE IMPORTANT LEVEL, DID YOU GUYS LIKE THE VARIETY OF COLOURS I USED?

WAIT.
JUST. A.

MINUTE.

MY EYEBAGS ARE DEFINITELY BIGGER THAN THAT...

Ahh there we go.
Stripped of all aesthetics.
Anyway, enough of my face. (Sorry guys)
Exams are in two weeks.
TIME TO STUDY. LATAAAAHHHHSSS PEOPLE!

BAI.

2011-05-25T15:25:00.001+10:00

I feel like deleting this blog and starting a new one?
BUT I'LL STILL FOLLOW THE SAME PEOPLE THOUGH
HMMMMZ0r

The horses are coming so you'd better run

2011-05-22T22:17:00.000+10:00

All my life,

and the here after,

I've never seen,

someone like you.

Doing my last assignment for the semester before the exams!

YAYYYYY!

But procrastinating on here, Facebook, MSN and Skype as usual...

GO GO POWER RANGERS !

Let's hope I finish this without having to cram for it..

ALSO.

In more recent news, I'm going to Canada for a semester length exchange. My admissions package is actually in Melbourne right now, SO IT SHOULD COME SOON!

WEEEEEEE! :D

Now I just gotta buy tickets, get health/travel insurance, decide whether I want to live by myself or share a room, get more moneys, BUY WINTRY CLOTHES AND SHOES and think if I should do a last gathering or something... hmmm.. ~~decisions, decisions.~~ PROCRASTINAAAAAATE.

BAI.

2011-05-21T02:20:00.001+10:00

21/05/2011
1:55:21 AM
JZ -

"its the little things in life you gotta pay attention to too"

2011-05-21T00:59:00.002+10:00

FREAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKY LOL

2011-05-21T00:28:00.004+10:00

i am me,
but it sucks sometimes, when being me isn't enough.

2011-05-19T02:07:00.001+10:00

sometimes i don't understand you; whether your actions are in spite of me or whether the situation really is how it is.
regardless of which ever, i'm still trying- but you should know that there's going to be a day, no matter how much i dread it, that even trying won't work anymore.
that's when we'll know we're in the pits

Nothing at all

2011-05-19T00:22:00.000+10:00

Today I don't feel like anything,

I just want to lay in my bed.

Don't feel like picking up my phone,

So leave a message at the tone~

Ahh speaking of which, my phone is currently not working.

Will probably use an old phone or something till I figure out how to fix it up :S

Contact via FB in the meantime I guess.

2011-05-16T22:34:00.000+10:00

This is by far, the hardest assignment I've done all year.

Ergh, someone saaaaaaaaave meeeeeee!

*waits for spiderman*

I never saw it coming

2011-05-15T15:43:00.001+10:00

Hi guys.

I've realised that I don't really write much here as I used to anymore, and instead this space has sort of turned into a place for aesthetic purposes? I don't know how to put that into less retarded words.
BUT YEAH.

Last night I finished an assignment and although I finished at 3am, I finished it guys. I FINISHED ONE OF MY MARDAFARGIN ASSIGNMENTS.
Now I just have two more left till the end of semester until exams come and wreak havoc on our brains and studying capabilities.
Hmm.. I don't really have much to write about.
SO SAD RIGHT.
I guess I have not yet documented the Maroon Five concert I went to last week.. and my trip to the Ear and Eye Hospital.. and.. what happened yesterday with the dance kids.. and of my upcoming trip to Sydney... HO MA GEE GEE GEE GEE BABYBABYBABY.

Because I'm ever so lazy with words right now, (I HAVE TO WRITE UP A 2000 WORD LAB REPORT LATER), I shall provide pictures to help this post fit into my newly aesthetic-themed blog.
ROUND 1 - FIGHT!

Hokay. So I didn't take any pictures of the actual band, or of Adam Levine *soo hot*.. but HEY. It's all about the music, guys. MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC.
But seriously though.. he was extremely *_*, AND IT WASN'T JUST BECAUSE OF HIS TATTS, G.

ROUND TWO - FIGHT!

My trip to the Ear and Eye hospital was so fail.
The contacts that I was wearing broke in my eye and I couldn't get the other half of the broken lens out of my eye.

I was meant to go on a date with JZ that Friday too :( SORRY JZ!
So I met up with G, Stephen and Andy and we ventured towards a pharmacy to seek help? Then they told us to go to the hospital.
Hoooosspiittaaaaaaaaaal..
Truthfully speaking, I've never been to a hospital for treatment or anything before.
Dude. I don't even have a family doctor.
So going to a hospital for help from a doctor, I felt was a MASSIVE PRECAUTION I didn't think we needed :/
But we went there anyway and LOL, G and I saw Li-Ming's cousin.
COINCIDENCE? NO. I SAY FATE.
Anyway, not one but TWO nurses looked at me and they couldn't take out the retarded piece of plastic in my eye.
So we waited even longer for the doctor to see us. And yeah, she took it out :D IT HURT THOUGHLOL. She was like probing my eyeball with these sticks and put yellow dye in my eye :( .. which at the time, I had no knowledge of.
So I was walking around the city with one yellow'd eye? YAY

FINAL ROUND - FIGHT!
As some of you guys may know, I help teach disabled kids dance with Serene and others for Toe-Knees Promotions. Yesterday, we caught these two kids kissing each other. ZZZZZZZZZZOMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
THEY MUST BE IN RUVVVVVVVVVVVVV ♥ ♥ ♥
HAHA but nah, apparently next time we see them, we have to separate them.
Funny thing was, my friend screamed when he saw them kissing. SOOOO FUNNY LOLLLLLLLL. HAHAAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAAHAHAHAH still can't get over the fact that he screamed.. xD

And FINALLY.

SYDNEY TRIP AFTER EXAMS, HERE WE COME.

Okay. I think I've written enough to suffice for my recent lack of real blogs.

*recalibrates*

HEHEE!

BAI.

First kiss

2011-05-14T22:19:00.003+10:00

Credited to JZ (:

♥
EDIT#
I just realised how that was sort of phrased wrongly.
HAHAHA

2011-05-11T00:00:00.001+10:00

rararharhrharhahaharrhar i haven't done any work for almost three weeks now
T_T
WHERE'S MY MOTIVATION GONE?

Someday, she'll fly away.

2011-05-10T22:30:00.002+10:00

She's the quietest kind of rebel.
But how can you understand her, if she can't even understand herself?

In other news..

2011-05-08T01:02:00.000+10:00

Surrounded by chicks in this photo LOL

Happy Birthday to these two big boys (:

BAHAHAH and the food was waaaaaaay too much, but nevertheless the night was generally very awesome !

Congrats for reaching another milestone and I wish you guys all the best in the future!

BAI.

2011-05-07T23:07:00.002+10:00

Ouch :(

dinosaur

2011-05-04T01:14:00.001+10:00

group presentation today was luls.
seriously freaking out so much, i walked into a table that these students were sitting at.
GG LOLL!

in other news, foodomnomnmonmonomnonmnom with g today and he laughs at his own jokes before telling them :(
when i'm waiting for the joke, i'm like:

then he's like:

then i'm like:

then he's like:

and i'm just like:

Also, my straightener is sort of retarded :(

It keeps dropping on the ground so now one of the hot plates have slid off the actual straightener HAHAHA!

NOT TO WORRY THOUGH, in order to keep it usable, I'm using a rubber band to keep it in place :D

BAI.

we'll be okay

2011-05-01T20:59:00.000+10:00

whaddup?

Despite looking like a monkey on his back, I quite like this picture.

COLLARBONE.

BAI.

Giraffe;

2011-04-28T20:36:00.000+10:00

I don't mind where you come from

As long as you come to me

But I don't like illusions

I can't see them clearly

I don't care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do

I don't mind;
I don't care
As long as you're here.

♥

BAI.

2011-04-28T19:47:00.002+10:00

I wonder why there are horseshoes on my tyres.

2011-04-25T01:36:00.000+10:00

- i honestly hate this -

this.

*kicks a cat*

sigh i need to put my mind to other things.. LIKE STUDYING.

EXAMS ARE LOOMING.

LO0Oo0oo0O0o0OOo0o00OOoOOo0OO00OO0o0OOOoOOo00oM1N6!

Okay, coconut man, moonhead and pea..

2011-04-24T17:57:00.000+10:00

Hokay dokay.

So last Friday night, I went to this event called Wonderland which was held at the Royal Melbourne Hotel.

I know what you're thinking.
WHY IN THE WORLD, DID I GO CLUBBING?
Well, Renee is awfully persuasive ;)
And recently, my mum experienced a change in her cognitive processing, therefore this change attributed to the eligibility of my night out.
AT FIRST I THOUGHT IT WAS A TRAP.
SEEING IF I'D TAKE THE BAIT, GET REELED IN THEN EATEN.
But you knowwwww, I took up the opportunity anyway and hey, she didn't turn cannibalistic :D !
SO.
First real clubbing experience EVER, yet not as pleasant as I hoped it to be.
I mean, we waited outside for an hour only after cutting the line, (I APOLOGISE TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO WAITED LONGER THAN US, karma will bite me back in the butt so don't worry!) but when Cally and Serene tried to cut the line, the big fat bouncer told them to get to the back of the line.
ZOMG.
How Renee and I cut in without him noticing, I have no idea.
But in the end, because we felt bad for going in before them, Renee and I waited at the doors for them to come (: hehe!

So pretty much, the club was club-like? I unno.
Heaps of asians, saw people I haven't seen in a while, hot and sticky.
It was pretty fun actually.. UNTIL.
DUN DUN DUN!

As Renee and I were taking pictures, as you do, I noticed a huge horde of guys pushing and shoving people around. Bottles were being flung, and people were getting kicked and punched. So. Unbelievably. Scary.
I pulled Renee to outside the glass doors but Renee was stuck in between the door and the wall, getting squished. Luckily this guy saw her and pulled her out.
I eventually grabbed a hold of her and we went behind the safety of the glass windows. BOUNCERS INTERVENED, COPS CAME, BLOOD.
BLOOD.
On a side note, I played these zombie games yesterday with G.
.. DID NOT ALLEVIATE THE DISTRESSFUL PREDICAMENT OF THAT NIGHT.
But it was still fun HEEEHEEE. SHOTGUNS ARE AWESOME. ONE HIT K-O MAAFAAKAAA!

ANYWAY.

Yeah.
Night ended pretty much, and Jvn drove us back home. THANK YOU!

Renee has more pictures but here's some shots anyway.

WE'RE SO VAIN LOL

So there we have it, my first clubbing experience HAHA.
Maybe it's a sign that I should never go againLOL

BAI.

2011-04-22T00:02:00.002+10:00

I don't usually remember my dreams but the one last night was horrid.

Why do people get nightmares for?

2011-04-20T23:53:00.000+10:00

"don't get a boyfriend, they just give you headaches."

Lol.

(:

2011-04-18T15:25:00.000+10:00

michael cera & ellen page.

Just a bunch o' cool cats ♥

2011-04-17T20:41:00.000+10:00

Still cannot get over how awesome our session was, so consequently, they MUST make their appearance here.

HAHA

BAI.

GANGSTAAA'S PARAADISE

2011-04-16T17:11:00.001+10:00

Hello.
Today's blog post can be found on Li-Ming's page :D

ENJOY.

NB.
STALKING IS BAD FOR YOU.

~~BAO~~ BAI.

BURRRRRR, BUTT WARMTH.

2011-04-15T22:37:00.001+10:00

HAHAHAHAAHAHA

BUTT.

So starting today, I'm breaking out of this cage

2011-04-13T15:07:00.000+10:00

As some of you may know, chances are slim..
ACTUALLY.
I don't really know who reads this except JZ and Li-Ming but HEY GUYS, MY HAIR PORTRAYS EVIL.
I mean, it's black now.

Why do I look so stoned?

Really, this picture doesn't do my hair colour justice. Because it's a much more deeper blue-black colour. It doesn't even look natural.
If you happen to see me from the back, I wouldn't even look Asian.
That's how unnaturally black it is.
HAHA.
It's kind of weird to look at too..
I haven't had just straight-black hair since I was in Year 8.
YEAR EIGHT FOOLS.

A change for the better? I HOPE.
I'm still wanting a random streak of colour somewhere though.
HMM.

But in the meantime, welcome to Blackville guys.

Stale bread awaits.

BAI.

A trip to the treetops and higher

2011-04-10T15:38:00.001+10:00

Hello.
Um, so yesterday was my one year anniversary with the one and only Gabriel Ong.
We didn't do anything.
..

Bye.

JUST KIDDING.
OH SO FUNNY.

I spent the entire day with him, through the mystical trees, winding roads and philanthropic rain, the whole day was an ADVENTURE INTO THE REALMS OF PARALLEL WORLDS.
In this realm, he is a God.

Or a ~~park~~ pokemon ranger.
I'm not quite sure.

Whereas in this realm... maybe not so much.

Regardless of which realm we were in though, the day was ours and we spent it in the Dandenong Ranges. I thought Sky High was a school in the sky just like the movie but my expectations proved to be faux because I'm sort of retarded thinking there's a school in the sky to begin with.
NEVERTHELESS.
PICTURES!

Starting with lunch in the dandy ol' suburb of Sassafras, LOL SASSAFRAS! WHY SO COOL NAME FOR. Miss Marples Tea Room was so pretty.
There were pretty teapots everywhere and pictures of course of Miss Marples herself. It really has a nice interior but it was so busy! Lucky for us, being just the two, when we walked in, we got a table straightaway without having to wait for an eavesdropped time of 45 minutes.
WE WIN AT LIFE.

It was hard taking pictures of the interior without taking pictures of people. Even more awkward when you review the pictures and you see them looking at your camera.

Food was so good too!
I had a Chicken cottage pie.. (YAY NO MORE 'VEGETARIANISM') and G had the Fush and Chups.

SO NAICE.
Later on, we travelled further up into the mountains of Dandenong and visited Sky High (not a school in the air). The view was brilliant. We were so tempted to call up someone and be like, "HEY, WE CAN SEE YOU." and then they'd be like, "WHAT, WHERE ARE YOU?" and we'd be like, "WE'RE IN THE MOUNTAINS BEEETCHEZ, WE CAN SEE EVERYTHING." HAHAHHA.
Something like that.
..
PICTURES!

We can see you.

After exercising for a couple of hours? I don't know what time we started.. we noticed the clouds.

Omnomnomnomnominous aren't they?

So we made a dash back to the car where we waited for the rain to die down. BUT IT DIDN'T SO WE WERE TRAPPED IN THE CAR. WHAT MADE IT WORSE WAS THE PITTER PATTERING OF THE MOLECULES OF H20 which further exacerbated our need to pee.

Yes.

We needed to pee.

Driving back down the mountain was the most scariest thing ever. Through the rain and bleak cover of the night, it was near impossible to see :(

But we made it down without ramming our car off the mountainside and reached civilisation with our lives still intact.

Civilised.

We ended the day with good Thai food where we shared our feelings and talked about more feelings and feelings feelings feelings and corn flavoured mushkabataka. RATATA? RAHTARHTARH QUICK ATTACK! CRITICAL HIT!

That's all folks.

Happy Anniversary retard,

Thank you for everything!

I love you.

♥

BAI.

Random squiggle #2

2011-04-07T22:32:00.000+10:00

Don't you just hate having a heavy bag? It makes it awkward running to the bus stop because you're weighted down by something. You then look like a retard with one shoulder lower than the other while you hurriedly limp towards the bus.

I was doing this today :( WHEN ALL OF A SUDDEN, A BREEZY LIGHTNESS APPROACHED ME and I turned around to see my uni bag on the ground.
My uni bag's shoulder strap broke again :(

I don't want to get another bag because I have so many already. Although, not being appropriate for uni... they're still bags and I DON'T WANT TO ADD TO MY COLLECTION OF BAGS.
It makes me feel bad lol.
SPEAKING OF BAGS, I WANT TO GET THESE NEW SHOES THAT ARE SO AWESOME-INDUCING.
MOHNEHH, LEY HAI BIN DOU?

t_T

the t is sad.

Random thought

2011-04-07T20:27:00.002+10:00

I like the name Aaron.
There aren't that many names that have the same vowels next to each other (:

PARTYIN? PARTYIN? YEAH..

2011-04-06T01:02:00.000+10:00

I just.

SOMEONE MAKE HER STOP.

She's so cute in how she defends herself.

She's like thirteen years old omg

I want to pat her headdd heheheheh

Such an interesting child xD

BAI.

Bang bang!

2011-04-04T22:48:00.001+10:00

How good does this cake look?

ZZZZzzzzz so many assignments, so little motivation.

Where has all of my energy gone? One glance at the clock and it's already 10:42PM? What have I been doing for 3 hours since I got home? I need more time. GRARRRH!

And I keep looking at that cake which makes me want it even more now. Look at all that cream. Chocolatey cream. And the crispy chocolate bits in the middle? IF I HAD IT, I'D PUT MY FACE IN IT AND CONSUME IT THROUGH MY FACE. BECAUSE. THAT'S JUST HOW YOU SHOULD EAT THESE KIND OF CAKES.

Ohmyyygosh.

Assignments!

I wanna shoot you all dead.

rarara

BAI.

2011-04-02T00:06:00.004+11:00

whatever makes you happy, whatever you want

April Fools?

2011-04-01T18:06:00.000+11:00

what the heckkk is wrong with me? :/

I haven't been blogging properly for a while now, and partly it's because there isn't much I want to put down into writing. Nothing that's been worthy of writing about, but the other half of me knows it's really because I'm just too lazy to put what I want into words. So then I choose pictures and lyrics as a way of describing that day for me?

Hmm.

Anyway, I just came back from work about an hour ago and got told off by my boss for wearing the wrong uniform. I was supposed to wear a completely white shirt but since it was in the wash, I didn't have a second pair. So consequently, I opted for another white shirt, only it had some plain design stuff on the front, but hardly eye-worthy? I don't know. There was a big hoo hah at work and I was just thinking why it was such a big deal? I wear an apron over my shirt anyway, so you can't really see the design because it's mostly covered up anyway? But I guess, work is work and I don't want to get fired.

There's a new girl at work too :D And she's from Shanghai!

I must say, Shanghainese kids are preeeee coooooooooool ;)

HAHA but yeah, other than that little incident at work, the rest of my shift was pretty fun (:

The guys in the back are funny.. except for the head chef. He's just scary.. :/

SCARYY.

But he looks like one of the cooks in my other work-place LOL THE RESEMBLANCE SEEMS SO CONNIVING.

Uni isn't so bad either but recently there's just been so much drama everywhere and it's just all so dramatic and I don't know what's going on anymore.

I'd rather just step back and put in my earphones with my music turned uppp and ignoreee thee resstt of theee woorrrllddddd. WAAAITER. I'D LIKE A BIT OF THAT BLITHE INSOUCIANCE THAAANK YOUUUUUUUUUU :D

If only it was that easy :/ but I guess, things need to be worked out and running away from problems isn't exactly going to end in denouement, right? :(

FIVE MORE MONTHS.

I should heed the words of my friend and 'think of the bigger picture'

The.

Bigger.

Picture.

Currently smells like dogwee.

BAI.

With my eyes wide open

2011-03-31T20:12:00.000+11:00

yooooooooooooooooooooooou suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

:(

Cardiods are epicycloids but with one cusp

2011-03-29T23:07:00.001+11:00

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here;

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control,
I want a perfect body,
I want a perfect soul;

I want you to notice,
When I'm not around,
You're so fkin' special,
I wish I was special.

Oh. My :D

2011-03-27T21:49:00.000+11:00

OvO !

Stressignments

2011-03-22T21:22:00.000+11:00

Sort of want a break from this messy, messy world.

don't you ever ever feel, that you're less than

2011-03-21T22:37:00.000+11:00

garh.
gotta just bite my lip and ignore it, even though it's getting harder and harder to act and pretend that your words aren't insulting :/
people. have reasons. for their actions. even if i don't personally understand them.

they're

still

reasons.

nonetheless

*rattles head*

must remember that amanda.

WOOHOO. LOOK AT THAT BLUBBER FLY.

2011-03-19T21:30:00.000+11:00

hello.
I just came back from Chadstone Shopping Centre today and FURRY CREATURES GALORE.
I wish I had the photos from today but they're on Renee's phone so.. sadface, you're all going to have to envisage a big furry dog suited bear. Imagined it yet?

YEAH.
EXACTLY LIKE THAT.
Only it doesn't look anything like that.. LOL WTH IS THAT^

Heaps of fobs were taking pictures with these QEE Statues. I think they were called QEE. or QUU. or QQQ.
QK <-- LOOK; A NINJA.

Since I don't have these pictures, (they'll probably be up on Facebook sometime this week anyway) I have pictures from MY IPOD. WOOOT.

oh yeah.

WE WORE MATCHING TOPS TODAY.

HAHAHAHA.

So yeah. We basically shopped all day HAHA. I didn't actually buy much for myself though :( I NEED MORE MONEY.
The plan was actually to go to the gym today because I won't be going next week :( I can feel my fatness coming back. But since it was a Saturday, the buses to Uni from Chaddy were every two hours. SO ceeebs. Even though I brought my gym stuff :(
NEWSFLASH.
When I walk, I can actually see my thighs jiggle. They're like blubbery. Blubber blubber blurblubrlubrber.

...

BAI.

2011-03-13T15:35:00.001+11:00

there is no trust

Somewhere only we know

2011-03-13T14:24:00.000+11:00

Oh simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

2011-03-12T01:28:00.000+11:00

I probably should migrate to tumblr sooner or later.

Hajimemashite

2011-03-12T00:31:00.002+11:00

PARENTS CAME BACK FROM OVERSEAS TODAY.
I'M SOOOOO GLADDDD THAT THEY'RE STILL NOT IN JAPAN.
Japan man... all my condolences go out to families and relatives of the Japanese ancestry.
I hope Yuki's family is okay. :/

It seems with all of these earthquakes, tsunamis and general crazy asssed disasters that's going around lately, twentytwelve is getting closer and closer. And not in the sense that it gets closer everyday, but the anticipated calamities that are to ensue with it.

I stole this picture from Twitter.

Just one of the after-images of the massive 8.8 earthquake in Japan, I guess. I saw this other picture of little school kids and they were wearing these massive triangle poncho things on their heads. IT WAS SO CUTE.

EVEN JAPAN'S EMERGENCY OUTFITS ARE ADORABLE.

TOOOOOOOOOOGEEEEEEEEEE.

Anyway.

Mum bought me this Japanese Yukata (summer dress) and it's actually pretty neat, although I see no possible future event to which I can wear it to :(

FLORAL PATTERNS ATTACK!

Whaddup?

Also.
New news.
Chances of going to Canada in semester two are 19:1.
LOL roarh so specific. But yeah 95% chance of going now.
I'm excited, but my enthusiasm has somewhat been constricted because of the events of Japan.
It's so devastating :/
Metro trains tomorrow are also cancelled.
WHAT IS HAPPENING WITH THE WORLD!?!

BAI.

The show goes on

2011-03-11T01:12:00.000+11:00

Superficial is a word I think I'd like to label you, but labelling someone like they do to cookie jars is mean.

So I won't.

I guess, we're all a little bit superficial.

One way or another.

Anyway.

Have a nice day guys.

BAI.

Save your sorrows for tomorrow

2011-03-10T01:52:00.000+11:00

I'll be your lullaby

♥

We've come so far.

One more month to go.

BAI.

Patience is a virtue

2011-03-06T18:22:00.002+11:00

Exactly how I'm feeling right now.. in the more profaner way of putting it.

BAI.

Can you feel this magic in the air?

2011-03-04T22:59:00.000+11:00

Indie dress up day with Li-Ming :D

Not much to say.

Except that I wish I was still studying French. My French knowledge is declining like a tan graph.

I got my two textbooks today in the mail!

It took almost more than two weeks to deliver but it was well worth it (saved me buying outright for double the price!)

I've also bought a wrong book :( THE GIRL WHO SOLD IT TO ME LOOKED SUSS TOO.

GRAHRHAEIU I'm so stupid lol.

Next time, I'm asking for edition numbers.

Hmm.

Right now I'm reading about Ted Bundy.

And at the same time, talking to JZ who's sending me really funny tumblr images.

I am both appalled at Ted's actions but at the same time laughing my head off at these pictures.

I'M SO CONFUSED.

DAMN YOU JZ.

Anyway.

I like this picture.

And the guy in it (:

BAI.

Siblings

2011-03-01T19:22:00.001+11:00

If I were to have a facial expression that described exactly how I felt about siblings right now.. I'd say this'd be the one.

What kind of facial expression is that?
Okay. I have no idea.
I'll call it the 'Retardednator' though, cos that's what it looks like.
So this Retardednator and I.
Even though we've only just recently met, it seems as if we've known each other for a long, long, long, infinitely long amount of time but have never really talked.
It's like those hi-bye people. You've actually known them for a really long time, but you've never really talked to them. And luckily so, because awkward turtles would probably fly and shiet on your face if you were tossed into such a predicament.
Which is the exact reason why Retardednators look the way they do. Awkward flying turtles actually decided to have their bowel movements. On your face.

Anyway.
I have a younger brother who is about to enter into an age riddled with strife and teenage angst. And I mean, that's not too bad because it means that he's finally growing up and you don't have to deal with all the childish antics you've been putting up with over the last how many years he's been living. But being the youngest that he is, he's often gotten away with a lot of things that normally, not the youngest siblings would be able to get away with.
Now that the parentals aren't home, I don't know whether I'm being too hard on him. I DON'T WANT TO MAKE HIM CRY AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO MAKE HIM MAN UP.

GRAHR I really don't want to be the sinecure sister but then again, I don't want to be a mean one either. Sometimes I feel as if I have to be firm with him despite his tantrums and constant wailings.

I really don't know what too dooooo..Anyone who's met him will know what I'm talking about :/
I really hope he gets better though. Hmm.

Also.
Today was a fail day. In that I woke up at 7.45am for my brother and then listened to his tantrums and then tried going back to sleep because I didn't have a lecture till 11am. John was coming at 10.20 and it was already 8am so I just stayed up because I couldn't sleep anymore.
Then when I got to uni, my lecturer didn't even show up so everyone started leaving and I didn't have a class until 2pm.
I'm.. really tireddddddddddgahh.
And I have work tomorrowwwwwwwzzzzz
BUT ON THE BRIGHTSIDE. I just had Pocky :D

BAI.

No escape from reality

2011-03-01T00:06:00.001+11:00

Hi children.
I'm on Facetime right now with Li-Ming but I don't actually see her.
Li-Ming: When do you finish tomorrow?
Me: Five
Li-Ming: Five's not too bad

WE HAVE AWESOME CONVERSATIONS, SO AWESOME THAT I'M TYPING THEM UP NOW.
HAHAHAA.

Anyway.
Today was the first day back into the life of a university student, only difference being that this is my second year rather than my first.
THIS HAS THEREFORE ENABLED ME TO REIGN SUPERIORITY OVER THE NEW BATCH OF FIRST YEARS. So as these fresh meat tumbled into our land of education, unbeknown to them all of the day that was to ensue, I couldn't help but notice the aura of highschoolness that surrounded these new people.
For example.
Incessant gigglyness coming from a batch of girls who'd squeal at every person they knew and massive hardkore dragon ball z inspired hairstyles coming from the guys.
CAN YOU BELIEVE WE USED TO BE LIKE THAT?

Me and my hardkore dragon ball z inspired hair, man.
Good times.

To top it all off, I had a four hour break today.
FOURRRRRRRRRR HOURS.

Now back to my conversation with Li-Ming.
GOODBYE.

Li-Ming: Do you like my hat? I've actually never showed you my little hat have I? *shows red furry thing* I can't put it on with one hand.
Me: OHH THAT'S CUTE.
Li-Ming: *shows mirror*
Me: I CAN'T SEE!
Li-Ming: Oh. *turns away*

SHE JUST HUNG UP ON ME.
REVENGE.

Well. She actually called me back a second later, but this was just too funny not to post.

BUT STILL.

PAYBACK FOR ALL OF THOSE PICTURES YOU SHOWED ME, WHERE YOU PURPOSELY ZOOMED UP ON MY FACE.

ESPECIALLY TOWARDS MY VISUAL REGISTERS.

THEY CAN'T GET ANY BIGGER OKAY.

STOP TRYING.

BAI.

All I wanted was.. All I wanted was to say..

2011-02-26T01:14:00.000+11:00

We're running out of time
We have things on our mind
And things that we just dont like
Who'd you wanna say?
Who'd you wanna be tonight?

Sweet Disposition

2011-02-24T13:36:00.000+11:00

Oh how I've missed shopping in all its dignified glory

BAI.

2011-02-13T18:32:00.002+11:00

Not really into the whole 'traditional' festivity of the fourteenth.
Never have been and now that circumstances are different, not really now either to be honest :/
Maybe it's just me.
Hmm but I've gotta hand it over to commercialism though.
They are really.. quite good. HA

FIVE A.M. MUTHALOVERS.

2011-02-12T05:10:00.000+11:00

IT'S FIVE IN THE MORNING! HAAAAAI!

OMG. I am so sleepy...

AT FIVE AM? JUST JOKING!

Wait. Who said that?

Zzzz.....

NO I'M AWAKE.

Just joking. This is what my face actually looks like right now.

BACK TO YOUR TURN JZ.

IT'S 2AM WEEEEEEEEEEEE

2011-02-10T02:24:00.002+11:00

What are you doing?

NOTHING

SHIETT IT'S 2AM

NO REALLY, IT'S 2AM.

............... IT'S.. 2AM... ... . . :O ..

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE HAWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

It's twooooooooooooooooo ayeeee emmmmmmmmmmmmmm HEHEHEHE

YOUR TURN JZ :D

2011-02-09T02:29:00.000+11:00

You're dead but the world keeps spinning.

Family politics

2011-02-08T00:41:00.002+11:00

When the fighters are all around
All the lovers are underground
No one will save you anymore
So what's happening, what you rapping about?
Little boy. Is it cars? Is it girls? Is it money?
The world?

Sensitivity on certain family issues is set to such a high degree; you have to watch what you say and who you say it to because in the end, it could be used against you.

This is like a game that you can never get out of.
And once they've got dirt on you; you're a goner mate.

But in other less vague information, I worked all day today! I feel kind of bad because my relatives were leaving today and I should've spent the day with them.
But no.
I worked from 10 to 3 at one job and then 6 to 10 at my other job.
I'm gonna miss my cousin too :(
SHE IS ADORAAAAAAAABLE!
She is also three years old.
Can't wait to see how she grows up HEHE.
Because I met her when I was 18, that means when she's 18 I can tell her I met her at that age and how LOUD AND NOISY SHE WAS WHEN SHE WAS THREE.
I AM SO GOING TO DO THAT.

ALSO.
Guy Sebastian apparently came into my workplace one day. About two months ago.

I AM SO RETARDEDLY JEALOUS THAT I WAS NOT WORKING ON THAT BLESSED DAY RIGHT NOW THAT I THINK I'M GOING TO GO FLAIL MY ARMS AROUND LIKE A TEENAGE OBSESSED FANGIRL OR SOMETHING.
:(
Being half Malaysian he was taking his Malaysian dad to our restaurant before his dad flew back to Malaysia.
ZZZZZZZZZOMGGGGGGGG T__________T
Sources say his wife is also very hot.

BAI.

2011-02-03T23:18:00.000+11:00

Am I more than you bargained for yet?
I've been dying to tell you,
Anything you want to hear,
Because that's just who I am this week.

Good deeds.

2011-01-31T23:20:00.001+11:00

I like this song.

I wonder where I'll be when I'm 28 (:

Anyway.
Today I found an iPhone on the road as I was getting off the bus.
Its cover looked really scratched too so it seemed as if someone had just chucked their phone out of the window of their car.
WHY WOULD SOMEONE DO THAT.
But yeah, I looked in the person's favourites and called them up.
Met up with the owner of the phone and gave it back to him.

IN MORE INTERESTING NEWS, MY RELATIVES ARE COMING OVER FROM NEW ZEALAND TOMORROW FOR MY DAD'S BIRTHDAY/CNYE CELEBRATION!
I'm really excited :D
I get to see my 3 year old cousin for the first time heheheeeee
Dad's flying over tomorrow too!
Can't wait till Wednesday cos I get to see Cheryl again as well :D
AND TOMORROW IS TUESDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! RARARAH :D

BAI.

This could really be a good life

2011-01-30T21:56:00.000+11:00

Hopelessly
I feel like there might be something that I'll miss
Hopelessly
I feel like the window closes oh so quick
Hopelessly
I'm taking a mental picture of you now
'Cuz hopelessly
The hope is we have so much to feel good about.

♪

Elocution so divine

2011-01-28T23:01:00.000+11:00

I have years and years of built up teenage angst buried deep within the crevices of my anger-ridden soul.
LOL just kidding!

But seriously.

Arguments are no fun.
I was just in one with my mum during dinner and things went rather sour. As a result, I have decided to keep low and not talk to her until tomorrow because it's scary. And her presence is like an ominous nebula; it will suck you in and spit you out all dismembered and sort of retarded-like.
Yes it will.
Believe me.
I don't likeee arguing with people.
But sometimes I feel as if I have to get what I need to say out there.
And this doesn't always agree with people and I digress now because I punched my papercut today and it really hurt. It split open again and started bleeding and I was like 'NOOOOOOOOOOO I'M DYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!' Then I punched my fist into one of the shelves when I was restocking the drinks at work and I was like 'NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'M REEEE-DYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG'

After I died, my shift finished and I spent an hour talking to Renee because I was waiting for her to start work again. She's really awesome, she is. And I'm happy I'm one of her friends (:
When she went back to work, I waited for Li-Ming and we hung out at Spotlight because she wanted to buy stuff to make. Li-Ming is also a definition of awesome. We both fell over and died in ice skating together. It was a joyous occasion.
Anyway. I die a lot of times.

Now back to the main topic of my post.
TEENAGE ANGST!

POOH CANNOT OPEN HIS HUNNY JAR.

POOH IS ANGRY.

ANGER IS EVERYWHERE.

ANGER ANGER ANGER.

So.

My mum doesn't trust me. She thinks that if she wasn't there, I'd go out and drink and party and club everyday till 5 in the morning. Shows how much she knows me, eh?

First thing's first.

I don't drink. And even if I do, on the rarest of all occasions, I'm not some stupid s-l-u-t who goes out looking for a good time. I have my morals, principles and values too, you know?

I don't club either. I DON'T OKAY. Okay, so maybe I've gone like once.. and a half. Is Wah Wah Lounge clubbing? I don't know. G says it is. But I don't think it was. Hence the half. BACK TO MY POINT. Why do people think I go clubbing all the time?

Particularly people I don't know.

Do I look like I club? DO I, PUNK? .. oh fk.

Maybe I do.

WHAT THE HECKKKK WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

I DON'T OHHMYYYGOSSHH.

I mean it's an interesting experience and all that but not my scene, thanks. I don't like going to bars either. They're not as entertaining as I'd like to think they are. I actually find bars boring.. but that's just me I guess.

Anyway, now that I have all that downpat, it's kind of clear that my mum doesn't know me as well as she'd like to think.

What's ironic though is that they want me home all the time. But when I'm home; she's doing her own thing, my brothers are off on their laptops and I'm just home doing nothing. NOBODY TALKS TO ME DAMMIT LOL.

IF EVERYONE IS DOING THEIR OWN THING, why can't I go out and do my own thing; like chilling with friends? I like hanging out with my friends, and hopefully I can be forgiven for saying so but I like going out. I like my independence.

There's so much in this world that I haven't seen, experienced. Why stay home cooped up all the time?

To be honest, that's also why I applied for the exchange (*CROSS FINGERS THAT I GET NOMINATED*). I know that in doing so, I'll be leaving everyone I love here but I really want to get out there and try something new.

I'm sorry for being so selfish, guys. I'm always thinking of what I want and how to get there myself. I don't like asking help from people unless I'm desperate. Roarh. It's an annoying aspect of my personality I guess.

I strive not to be contumacious too but my parents probably think otherwise.

I don't know.

I know my mum is just trying to protect me from the big bad parts of this world she's lived her whole life in, and I'm glad that she cares a lot about me.

But.

Sometimes, I think she's got to stop thinking that everyone in this world is out there to rape her only daughter and I don't know, just trust me more.

Anyway.

I'll stop.

Teenage angst haha

Well what's left of it anyway.

TWO MORE YEARS TO GO.

It'll be funny two years from now, when I'm all 'grown up' and 'matured', I'd look at this post and probably be like 'boy, was I so immature and childish back then.'

Asian parents.

You gotta love them and hate them all the same (:

What a long post..

BAI.

Little darling

2011-01-24T23:20:00.001+11:00

I don't expect him to do the same but I'm just glad he's there to listen (:
IN THE MEANTIME, I'm coming to terms with stuff.
Anddd.. I want to get paid soon :(
I thought I was going to get paid today, but then Renee was like it's usually on Wednesdays.
But I'm not working there on Wednesday soo I have to wait till my next shift.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LOL
Money is getting tight.
It's actually teaching me to not waste so much of it anymore. The past year I've been spending money so recklessly as if it were an infinite resource; spurious as it is, I can't do that anymore.
Gonna be different this time.
Just give me a minute.

BAI.

you're barely breathing, you're barely breathing

2011-01-24T02:09:00.000+11:00

you're entertained by lesser things

you've got to step it up a bit

step it a bit more until you're sure

there's nothing left inside to hurt this pretty mind

'cause pretty eyes will see right through you.

Talking, laughing, joking

2011-01-22T20:55:00.036+11:00

It's so easy to be blinded
And caught up, up in the clouds where everything's in a haze
Causing you to forget about the days
Of the common, simple, beautiful ways

Thanks for the photo JZ (:

And the flower rose thing you found in Kelvin's house. HAHA I wonder who I gave that to.

ANYWAY I re-edited this post because I think it was a waste of space with that one sentence. One sentence that could be used to for SAVING THE WORLD. Or something like that.
Hmm I'm thinking of changing this blog thing again.
I don't really write about anything important/mildly interesting anymore because I am usually in a ceebsy mood all the time. But I do like pretty pictures.
Pictures are nice.
People are nice too.
I like people.
Mmhm, might stop blogging soon.
LOLjk! I don't know haha.
Nobody really does it anymore. It's like a dying industry.

BAI.

2011-01-21T00:06:00.000+11:00

When I saw the break of day
I wished that I could fly a way
'Stead of kneeling in the sand
Catching teardrops in my hand.

"My ice cream! It's alive!"

2011-01-19T12:11:00.001+11:00

MY
UNITS
HAVE

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEN AAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPRRRROVEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

YAYAYYAYAAYAYAYAYAYYAAYAYAYYAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAAYAYAYAYAYYAAYYAAYYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYY

I AMMMM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :D

Now I've just got to go pick it up and hand in the rest of my stuff WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"I'm a manly French man who speaks English."

2011-01-17T22:52:00.000+11:00

You make me laugh so hard, I'm always crying.

♥

Rock it to the early dawn

2011-01-16T21:07:00.000+11:00

Life's funny sometimes, but all in all it works out, even in the weirdest of ways.
Like for example.
I went to get my ears pierced yesterday, and although I'm eighteen now and I don't need parental permission to get one done, the Asian in me knew that my mum wouldn't approve. Just like all of the other stereotypical Asian parentals in this world.
So I said 'SCREW YOU RANDOM ASIAN VOICE IN MY HEAD, I'M DOING THIS!'
So I did.
This would however turn ephemeral when my mum found out though.
.. which was straight away.

Just as the lady with the gun was about to shoot a hole in my ear, my mum popped up out of no where and suppressed a rage at me in the store. MY GOD IT WAS SCARY.
It was like she was on the verge of an evil tyranny, about to lay her vengeance upon me.

But anyway.
She ran away when the lady put the gun to my ear.
Just like a loving mother would when their daughter is about to get shot.
:D
Weird thing was, it didn't hurt as much as I thought it would.
Actually.
It didn't hurt at all.
I'm not trying to sound all macho with my nachos because Renee and I were basically shietting ourselves silly for like 3 hours before the piercing. Running around the mall, randomly bursting into scream every half minute just because it was fitting for the day.
There was just too much hype about the pain, I think it got exaggerated.
Anyway, my point is that I think I'd much have preferred my mother to know about the piercing now rather than later when she does discover it and my once halcyon days are imbued with insouciance. And not of my wanting either.
YEAH.
In hindsight, I'm glad that she found out. I'd have felt really bad keeping it from her. And I'd probably be in even bigger shiets when she does actually find out.
SO GUYS.

THE WORLD FOR THE WIN.

Anyway.
Enough with words.
Here's a before and after shot of my hearing limb.

Before.

After.

I LOVE IT :D

Just as much as I love this orange juice.

BAI.

2011-01-15T00:32:00.000+11:00

I'M EXCITED.
BUT SCARED.
AND EXCITED.
I'M SCARED AND EXCITED.
BUT DEFINITELY MORE EXCITED THAN SCARED RIGHT NOW.
ROARARHAHR :D

A rambling because I thought it was time for one

2011-01-12T01:46:00.001+11:00

Here's a statement.
I don't want to have to rely so much on people.
What if one day they leave, then I'm pretty much screwed aren't I?

Nothing is certain in life, so the meaning of forever is basically futile in its attempts to create something that we want to hold onto.
But I guess, that's where people's convictions get the better of them.
If you believe it'll work, it'll work. Well, at least that's what I think.
Efforts can still go to waste though.
And in this fast paced world that we live in, having the effort in something could stand for something. Even if it's a tenth of an ants worth of significance. But that's just to us though.
What is it to that person across the street? Nothing.

Gay uni procedures is definitely making the sky cry more than normal too but at the same time it manages to maintain the humidity of the air to allow for an uncomfortable temperature, just to piss us off. WHY ARE YOU SO RETARDED FOR.
YOU SUCK BALLS.
YOU INSUFFLATE THEM.
HARD.

Anyway.
Holidays have been pretty much holiday like. But I'm losing the track of days and second year university is fast approaching. To some, it's already started. BUT TO US NORMAL PEOPLE WHO DON'T DO SUMMER SCHOOL, WE'RE STILL HOLIDAYING.
I kind of want January to be over too.
For some reason, I don't like the beginning of the year.
Everything seems too new and everyone's like 'OH WHAT'S YOUR NEW YEARS RESOLUTION?' AND I'M LIKE 'YOUR FACE HAHAHAH'
Well not really.
But I'm not really into the whole resolution thing anymore. It's sort of overrated and I don't see anything to it. You can make goals anytime of the year right? And it'd still be as new as that pair of shiny Adidas shoes you bought 3 years ago, but have never worn.

My mum comes back on Saturday.
This 'freedom' isn't going to last long :(
SO MY PLAN FOR THE WEEK?
Wednesday - Visit the kids at uni!
Thursday - WORK ALL DAY.
Friday - Find something that I usually wouldn't do if the parentals weren't home. HAHAjk jk! Be a good girl (:
Saturday - GET EARS PIERCED YEAHHHHHHHHH BABY.

I've finally decided to do it.
SORRY LIMING.
I've thought about it over and over.
Your efforts into scaring the crap out of me didn't go to waste though! I mean, you've made me put it off for a couple of months now! You're like that good. HAHA but yeah.
IT'S ON.

BAI.

2011-01-11T01:28:00.000+11:00

even if i scream, i can't scream that loud.

Welcome to the hotel californiaa

2011-01-10T23:26:00.000+11:00

You're amazing.

I had my first day of work at shoppo today.

The time went by really fast. Faster than I expected. But probably because I'm working with Renee ♥ She so cool.

But yeah.

The pay isn't too bad, although it's not that much different from my other job now. But I guess, once the training period is over, I get an increase. And once I turn 19, I get an increase tooo.

I LIKE INCREASES.

Rarara.

Also.

This random lady started talking to me in Chinese in the toilet today. It was kind of weird but she was really nice.

Or so I thought.

Couldn't really tell because I don't quite understand Chinese all that well but she was smiling at me so I guess, human emotions all present a common meaning right?

My butt is itchy.

BAI.

One confession

2011-01-10T02:01:00.001+11:00

It's finally come down to the last day, albeit a tad overdue (:

Day Ten.

I'm not so much a good person as I'd like to be.

I'm self-conceited and sometimes, I know I act a bit too beetchy for my own good, which makes me feel like shiet about it later.

BAI.

Two aspirations

2011-01-08T23:21:00.000+11:00

I absolutely suck at doing these things.
BUT HERE'S A CONTINUATION OF MY FAILED TEN DAY CHALLENGE ANYWAY.

Day Nine.

1. To actually learn to speak a language other than English.

2. Do something in the future that will help people, doesn't matter whether it's my job/career or a hobby.

BAI.

Three turn ons

2011-01-06T01:30:00.000+11:00

Day Eight.

1. G. HAHAHAHA ♥

2. Hottttt abs..

3. Singing. I don't care if he sounds dangerously fatal, singing and having fun at the same time is definitely one of them (:

BAI.

Let there be love, babe.

2011-01-05T23:22:00.004+11:00

Also.
RIP TO MY RING OF ALMOST MORE THAN 3 YEARS.
(Monday 3rd January @ Ruffey)

Coincidentally, my watch in that picture also went missing at Soundwave last year.

Sad but what can you do :/

I will miss you ring.

The best puzzle ring in the whole entire world.

You brought so much entertainment in the downtimes and made a permanent indentation on my finger which will never be forgotten.

But I'd like to say thanks to the people who helped me look for it :)

You guys aaaree tooo niceeeeee forr meeeee toooooo haaaaaaaaandddleeeeeeeeeeeeee *explodes*

May your new owner have as much fun as I did with you. :(

Four turn offs

2011-01-05T23:14:00.000+11:00

Day Seven.

1. Smokers

2. Inconsideration and arrogance

3. Smelly feet

4. Extremely skinny people

BAI.

Five things you can't live without

2011-01-04T18:23:00.000+11:00

Day Six

1. The Bhutta & well, only the best rapper in the world* Jay-zee ;)

2. Gayb.

3. Music

4. Moisturising lotion

5.My phone

*up for disputation.

BAI.

Six things you are afraid of

2011-01-02T23:05:00.000+11:00

Day five

1. Really big and hairy spiders

2. Drowning in the big blue ocean

3. Being abandoned

4. Losing the most important people in my life

5. Melanoma

6. This is kind of narcissist but, I'm scared of getting really, really fat. So fat. I can't move kind of fat. To the point where even talking can cause fat to jiggle.

BAI.

Happy New Year!

2011-01-01T15:55:00.000+11:00

Today is the 1/1/11. That's got to stand for something I bet. Other than the fact that it's the first day of the new year. :D
SOME OF THE FIRST PICTURES OF THE NEW YEAR PEWPEWPEW.

NYAH NYAH NYAH.
We got home at around 2ish this morning.
The fireworks were so pretty (:
I had a jog around the park today. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER. FOOOOOREEEEVVERRRRRR.
Great way to start the new year.
Only thing that was kind of gay was that people were having sausage sizzles at the park. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I'M TURNING VEGO. SAUSAGE SIZZLES ARE NOT HELPING.
After playing on the playground with Michael for a couple of hours, I decided the meat temptation was too strong and so we made our way home where I had a yoghurt and nectarine for lunch. OMNOMNMON. BUT THEN MUM MADE PASTA WITH BACON. WHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. The smell is now wafting throughout the house and so now I sit here on my wheelie chair typing this, pretending that it doesn't exist.
NO AMANDA NO.
THERE IS NO PASTA IN YOUR HOUSE.
NO IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD.

Now to this.

Day four.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot

1. Pokemon

2. Why certain people act the way they do

3. When are we going to get hovercars?

4. Why is pink always associated with femininity?

5. What am I going to do with the rest of my life?

6. What happens when you die

7. Karma

BAI.

Happy New Year's Eve.

2010-12-31T15:48:00.000+11:00

Tomorrow is the first day of 2011 :D
So there's supposed to be some sentimental string of words to go along with that sentence but I refuse because I did that last year and things never go the same way twice. OH OH OH. Nice use of a proverb aMANDA! (Y) !!
HAHAHA.
Anyway, tonight I'm going to a family friend's place for NYE celebrations!
I get to see my friend whom I have not seen in quite some time soo WOOO! But there's also going to be another family there who we both have never met before, but apparently their kids are the same age as us.
SO.
My friend and I have come to the conclusion that it's either going to be fun or quite awkward.
Can't wait to see how it plays out HAHA!
ALSO.
Li-Ming and I have decided to turn vego for a week starting the 1st January 2011. Sooo today I went to shoppo and bought myself the necessary utilities for this transformation!
This'll be interesting.

BAI again.

Eight ways to win your heart

2010-12-31T15:43:00.000+11:00

Uh. What?

Day Three

1. No.

2. No.

3. Still no.

4. No.

5. Nope.

6. Nup.

7. NOOOHHH.

8. Smile a lot (:

BAI.

Nine things about yourself

2010-12-30T15:48:00.001+11:00

Day Two.

1. My hair length has never been past my elbows

2. Although I say I prefer rock songs over anything else, I actually like all types of music. Depends on my mood.

3. I have a gigantic birthmark on my right leg.

4. I'm an introvert. But can be loud if the right people are around.

5. I work at a restaurant.

6. I speak English.

7. My room is and always will be messy, no matter how hard I try.

8. I'm the oldest in my family.

9. I like correct spelling and grammar, but I'm not a grammarh Nazi.

BAI.

TEN DAY CHALLENGE

2010-12-29T22:12:00.002+11:00

Day one: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now
Day two: Nine things about yourself
Day three: Eight ways to win your heart
Day four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot
Day five: Six things you are afraid of
Day six: Five things you cant live without
Day seven: Four turn offs
Day eight: Three turn ons
Day nine: Two aspirations
Day ten: One confession

Okay.
So I don't usually do these things but I saw it on Tumblr and thought, 'WHYNAWT.'
Well.
Not really, but I thought it'd be interesting to do. And, it'll make sure that I'm posting something here everyday, instead of letting it die.. slowly...
SO YEAH. WHY NAWT?
I hope I actually do all of it though.
If I miss a day, it's because I actually have a life guys, and through all of its super duper intense action scenes, like from running away from bad guys with guns and AK 47s to jumping off roofs with fire; explosions, T-Pain and bombs in the background, I did not make it in time to write up my blog for the ten day challenge.

HAHAHA nah, I kid.
It would've been because I forgot because I'm very, quite lazy and/or covered in chocolate and potato chip wrappers, unable to move because of an inability to get up. Which pretty much sums up the fact that I'm lazy.
T___T
Now that doesn't sound the least bit exciting anymore. Sadface!
BUT YEAH.
LETS DO THIS.

DAY ONE

1. Never change who you are, okay? I know that's hard to do, but I like how you used to be when I first met you and if you do so happen to change, I'll still like you.. so long as the reason is well worth it, and coming from you, it usually is xD

2. You're the most caring and absolutely friendliest person in the world, despite what others say about you. But sometimes you care a bit too much, and to be honest, I think that's what's pulling you down. Grow some balls and man up because I know and you know and they know that you're better than the rest of them, a billion and gazillion times over.

3. You. Scare. The. Crap. Out. Of. Me. Despite what you say and how you act, YOU'RE SCARY MAN AND I'M REALLY SCARED OF YOU.

4. You're an interesting person. Hard and a really strange exterior but with a fudge mellowy centre. Sometimes you're kind of abusive too (not to me, luckily) but I know you're not like that usually. To be honest, I'm still trying to figure you out.

5. I don't care if you grow a fully fledged beard and have a big Spanish moustache, I'll still love you (: SO LET ME WAX YOUR LEGS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ♥

6. You're definitely not as appearances lead you to be. But after these couple of months, I'm starting to think appearances may well have some trickling of influence :/

7. Our relationship is a weird one, I have to admit. But despite its weirdness, I think we can both successfully say that we've grown up.. (well not really, I still feel like a kid SORRY) but you've been through a tough relationship and I'm glad that it's finally over for you. I congratulate you and hope that I get to see you more often because dude, it's gay not seeing you for so long :(

8. Just want to let you know that you're the coolest thang ever and don't ever let anybody pull you down because you know I'd just get my chainsaw and chop off their legs. Figuratively speaking of course. Keep smiling (:

9. I remember the first day I met you and the surprised and shocked look you had on your face of how I approached you HAHA. I just want to say how much I appreciate our friendship, even though I don't see you very often and stop worrying so much. Too much worry + Enjoying Life = Not a good combination.

10. You're cool. I wish I had talked to you more because dude, your coolness can turn the whole Pacific Ocean into another Alaska.

BAI.

A blog dedicated to G, entitled a blog dedicated to G.

2010-12-27T00:31:00.031+11:00

Merry belated christmas and a happy boxing day (:

I am writing this on my iPod again so hellllloooooooo!

Today, G and I went shopping. I bought shorts and stuff for family. G bought a $200 dollar leather jacket. G is a high roller. His jacket is also very hot. So hot that a billion suns would melt at the sight of it causing huge tsunamis to attack the coasts of Africa. That doesn't even make any logical sense but to keep it in the spirit of Christmas, anything is possible.

Later on we attacked people and boxed them all to death.
On the wii.

G is also twe-lve*. Which makes him a ped....ESTRIAN! So watch out people! if you see pedestrians on the roadside, don't run them over. Don't speed up pretending as if you're attempting to run them over too. That's just sick, man. No, no. Slow down and give those friendly pedestrians a ride! Sometimes candy or strange looking sweets will do the trick! Who knows, YOU MIGHT BE LUCKY AND OUT OF THOSE MILLIONS OF PEDESTRIANS YOU WILL ENCOUNTER, YOU'D MEET G!

Other interesting facts that you probably do or do not want to know about this G person whom is quite the legend-wait for it- .... include:
- he has hair
- facial hair to be precise
- facial hair includes a moustache and a beard
- his hair is black but did once have the elements of blonde in it. THE ELEMENT OF SURPRISE!
- sometimes when he's not looking, I take pictures of him and upload them to peer to peer file sharing networks. But he's always looking, so that has not actually happened... Yet.
- he has a lot of stalkers and over 1000 friends on facebook. ADD HIM AND HE'LL BE YOUR NEW BEST FRIEND
- he likes stuff

G also has a victory dance. It is quite a victorious looking dance too. And if you just so happen to catch a glimpse while he's on his tyrannic run of success, tears can be spotted in his eyes. Only they're not tears people; they're nodes of triumph.

I hope one day the universe can learn from the ways of this G dancing victorious beast of a man and that we too, will be just as awesome as he is.
And his moustache and beard.
<3

You're awesome and I love you très mucho grazzzias, retard (:

Today was gonna be the day, but they'll never throw it back to you

2010-12-20T22:16:00.000+11:00

The deadline is getting closer and closer

but

I'm not.

Why make it all so frustrating for?

I'm going to keep on trying though.

Till the very

last day.

There's so much you have to know

2010-12-20T01:19:00.002+11:00

It's never occurred to me how bad a daughter I am until now. Which in itself can contribute to how horribad a daughter I am considering the fact that I've only realised now. And that is one long and confusing sentence. Sorry, but you get the gist.
Rah.
I have to fix that.

Christmas is next Saturday!
I guess as you grow older, the whole festivity of it all sort of dies down with age or something. But the weird thing is, I was more excited about Christmas in August than I am excited about Christmas now. Strange world and times we live in.
Or it could be me... Hmm.
Strange world and times, indeed.

With only another 11 more days of 2010, I wonder what I've done this year that's made it even better than the other 17 years of my life.
Gone to uni. Made new friends. Have and sustain an amazing relationship with my besties and boyfriend.
All of whom I love so much, that I'd let my innards implode and then explode, and then implode explodingly on the basis that it would save their very, very, so very much valuable lives.. (:
But even still, I still can't help feeling as if I've let my relationship with my family suffer as a result of it. I remember the days when I'd sit with my mum for hours, just talking about whatever random stuff there was to talk about. I'd run and jump around the kitchen having conversations with her and everything was quite merry and gay. Ho ho ho. It was rather dandy. And gay. Ho ho ho. Gay. Ho ho ho. Gay. Ho ho ho. Gay. Ho ho ho. Ga..
I've never actually used the word gay in the context of enjoyment and merriment before. I now feel somewhat accomplished in something. Like a superhero. Who saves people. From falling out of trees. And roofs. And merry go rounds. OOOH RAH!
But yeah.
Times have changed so much.
Sometimes I wonder about the person I've become.
I'm definitely not the person I was this time last year and I don't know if I like the person I am now. Too sentimental and paranoid and all that bullcrap lol.
Times are a-changing babyy and we gotta look to the sky to get it alrightt~*

*Not actual lyrics. BUT DON'T THEY SOUND AWESOMEY AND LYRIC-Y JUST LIKE A REEEEEEAL SONG?

Anywhooo.
My plan for next week IS:
MONDAY (today) - Go out with JZ & Li-Ming for lunch :D
TUESDAY - Love and other drugs with JZ & Wendy! And possibly dinner with G after.
WEDNESDAY - MS Gift Wrapping with JZ and then street barbeque dinner thing with my neighbours at night!
THURSDAY - Kris Kringle at Li-ming's and then work!
FRIDAY - I'm not entirely sure yet :/
SATURDAY - CHRISTMAS PRESENTS AND JOY AND MERRIMENT AND LAUGHTER LIKE HAR HAR HARS SUPPLIED WITH A VERY GAY AND JOYOUS ATMOSPHERE. HO HO HO. MERRY CHRISTMAS ETCETERAH ETCETERAH ETCETERAH.
SUNDAY - Day after Saturday!

Oh gosh. I'm going to see JZ four days in a row.
~~May the lord have mercy on me.~~ xD
Jk.
Rahr. I think I'm going out too much too.
Sigh.
My money is disappearing as fast as it appears.
ANYWAYS. TILL NEXT TIME I POST SOMETHING, KIDDIES!

OOOOH RAH!

BAI.

2010-12-16T22:02:00.002+11:00

Sorry.

You look good, but you don't look great.

2010-12-14T23:33:00.000+11:00

Good morning.

I woke up today thinking. About my exchange overseas.

And sure enough, the faculty advisor called me back, only I was in the bathroom so I didn't pick up :( So then I recalled them again, about 10 times and they then finally picked up and announced to me that my Psychology units had been rejected.

All.

Of.

Them.

I was very unhappy.

So I travelled all the way to uni to give in NEW Psychology units for them to have a look over again. Then I visited about 4 other departments to get my other units checked off, 3 of which were not available.

BUT HEY.

On the brightside, I got one unit approved.

4/5 to go :D

I'M NOT GIVING UPPPPP.

I CAN DO THIS.

BAI.

Wherever you go.

2010-12-13T00:15:00.001+11:00

Pictures (:

Sorrento fun.

Today I woke up at 7.45am to go to the Retrostar Warehouse in Brunswick with G ! SOO EARLY. We bought stuff and it was dandy and cheap and dandy.

Later we then hung out at a graveyard because I had never been to one before.

So yeah.

We did just that.

We actually took more pictures and a video but got freaked out that some weird crap may pop up into it so we deleted it without watching. :D

It's kind of sad how people would steal things off dead people :( Some of the graves were so wrecked beyond repair, it looked as if somebody smashed it open with a sledgehammer screaming 'IMMA TAKE YOUR THINGS NOW, SO YOU JUST LIE THERE.'

Horrible horrible people.

After this delightful adventure, we then had lunch at this persian restaurant. It was yummy (:

That's Persian food everyone.

Persian.

From Persia... Or Iran..

Ask G.

THENNNNN WE WENT TO THE GLEN TO GET G'S GLASSES EXCHANGED COS IT HAD A BLACK MARK ON IT THAT WOULD AT ANY MOMENT CONSUME THE EYEBALLS OF THOSE WHO WORE IT.

We also visited JZ at work. (:

AFTER .

I WENT HOME AND WENT TO WORK.

TODAY WAS BUSYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY BUT I liked the adventure (:

YAY.

Day has now been recapped!

BAI.

In my sleep

2010-12-12T00:07:00.001+11:00

I haven't blogged in like 300 years and HOLY SHIEt MY DOOR JUST OPENED BY ITSELF I AM SO FRIGGIN SCARED RIGHT NOW WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WTH WYH TH.

Interlude.

Okay I went back to close it. I am currently on my iPod touch writing this because my laptop is just far too far away for my convenience. I'm also quite surprised people still visit my blog seeing that my last post was more than a week ago but you know, yay for stalkers. Not that I have any. But you know. Those imaginary ones you make up in your head. But anyway, its nice to know people still read my ramblings. Makes me feel sort of awesome and like a power ranger. Thanks guys.
I have a lot of things going on in my head, and they're like up there swimming around like tadpoles. Tadpoles turn into frogs. Frogs are slimy. I've touched a frog once. I think it was during primary school and we were at the zoo and in this room where there was an animal head on the ground and fur carpets. We all had to huddle around because they were gonna let us touch the snakes. Snakes are scary son of beeeeeeeeeecheZ. Anyway. I don't know if that is entirely true. It could possibly have been a really vivid dream or zoos really do have poaching rooms.

Now.
Back to my reason as to why there has been a huge blanking of blogs. The reason is. I've been abducted by aliens. And they didn't have Internet GAAADAMNIT. :( nah wait no. I've been in sorrento for the week. Fun roadtrip. Memories will never be forgotten. Shame that I'm on my iPod or else I'd have some photos of the trip here. Rarara! Maybe I'll blog more about it later. Maybe I won't. Maybe I'll have some pork chops. Maybe i won't.

AMERICAAAAAAAAA FFFFFFFFKKKKKKK YEEEEEAHHHHHHHH