The end of an era

It's started, and I'm not just talking about my exams.
:/
Anywho on to less ambiguity, this'll be my last post everrrrrrrr on this blog (:

But before I begin to start the intro to the end, it was my birthday a couple of days ago!
I HAVE NOW BEEN ALIVE FOR A MIGHTY NINETEEN YEARS.
HO HO HO.
Unfortunately, as we're all in the midst of an evil tyranny of exams, it was a day spent studying. But hey, adding more to your knowledge bank is the only thing money can't buy, so it's got to be the best present ever right? ehhehe!

On this very interesting day, I actually had a little visit from two pesky children a.k.a. JZ and G at midnight.
Sweetieeeess they are haha (:
Then I had another visit from JZ and Viktor later on in the last hours of the day.
ROAR.
Thanks for making me feel special guys ♥!
Each and every birthday message means a lot to me, even if it's a couple of words, and it doesn't matter if it's late either, because belated messages make my birthday even longer than the usual 24 hours xD



So I was initially going to close this blog so that so no one would ever be able to read my ramblings ever, ever, ever, ever. It's like this place wouldn't even exist!
But then that'll be like deleting all of the memories I've recorded in the last year and a bit, ever since I ended highschool. And I don't want to deprive the awesomeness this blog has been able to provide to the internet world either, so ultimately the only way to solve this dilemma is to shout out in my head... the next three words.. IT'S STAYING, BEETCHES.

Hmm reasons to close this?
At first I couldn't really put an exact finger on it, but in explaining it to my friend, words started shietting out of nowhere and here is, I believe an adequate response to the question.

[12:28:33 AM] aMANDA Lalala: but everytime i go back onto there, i feel like i have to assume another identity when i write stuff because it's as if the blog already has it's own style of posts that i have to adhere to
[12:28:50 AM] aMANDA Lalala: and lately i haven't been able to write how i used to anymore

I'm not quite sure if any of that makes sense to you guys, and it's okay if it doesn't.
I think I've just not been me lately, or feeling like myself.. MAYBE I'M MATURING.
OH NO. ADULTHOOD IS NOW HERE. SADFACE.
Or it could just be the exam stress.
HMMMMZOR, IN WHICH CASE AFTER THE EXAMS I'LL BE BLOG-LESS AND EVEN MORE SAD.
..AHH SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHII.....

So to anyone who stumbles upon this, I'm sorry but you simply HAVE to read all of my posts from the beginning and turn its stories into legends about how a little, passive and inhibitive girl turned into a strong, mighty, fearsome and mystical warrior known as the awesome amanda, (or any other ass-kicking name you guys can think of).

MAKE THEM INTO GOOD STORIES WHERE I FLY IN WITH MR. T ON A HELICOPTER, OKAY?
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

HAHAHAAHAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAAUHDSOIUFHUIHADFHAIUOFHDSIUFSIGFULDSGHFILUDSHFIULDSHFIUGDSLIFUDSFHSDIUFHD
But seriously, guys.
You have to do it.

GOODBYE DEAR LOVERS, STALKERS, FRIENDS AND RANDOM PEOPLE FROM EVERYWHERE.
And welcome to my blog.

BAI(forever).

This subject is so painful, I feel like crying :(

I like big butts

A sign that you've been eating too much chocolates and junk food?

When your bin smells like chocolatey goodness from all of the chocolate wrappers you've put in there.

IT SMELLS SO GOOODDDDDDDDDDDDDD BRO!

so.

good.

*wipes tear from eye*

In other news,

LOL WHERE DO PEOPLE COME UP WITH THESE?
I WANT I WANT I WANT LOL

BAI.

To pee, or not to pee.

Today I have learnt that a hormone in the hypothalamus as well as in the posterior pituitary gland, known as Vasopressin or ADH, aids in water reabsorption and the constriction of blood vessels.

That's why we don't pee everywhere, guys! 

:D!

Good on ya, Vasopressin!
YOU DO YOUR THING, DAY IN AND DAY OUT.
HELP ME NOT PEE ALL THE TIME.

Maybe sometimes,
We feel afraid but it's alright,
The more you stay the same,
The more they seem to change.. don't you think that's strange?

And freedom is the reason, you can't take it without a fight

I just stuffed my face with a bunch of grapes and my brother asks:
"Have you been studying?" LOL
Yes. Excessive binge eating is usually if not always associated with massive cramming.
OMNMOOMMMO.
But due to an unexpected twist in the conversation, here I am, going to relay to you a continuation of the above question posed.

Bro: "Have you been studying?"

Me: "Hmm, well my hair is a mess, my face is all grossed out with food, and I'm wearing grandma clothes.."

Bro: "Oh.. but you still look pretty though.

Me: *MASSIVE NAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWS*

HAHAHAHA.
What a cute little person.

Also.
I've put on about 3kgs of weight LOL .. in the space of like what, hmm, 4 days?
I'm pretty sure other people are going through this binge-eating/exam stress/I want to stab a teddybear kind of experience right now too LOL.. It really is a huge wonder how we all make it out alive after all of these one month periods.. HAHHA 

Me^

BAI.

HEY GUYS
I HAVE EXAMS NEXT WEEK!
LET'S GO CLUBBING HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHUDSUDHUASIHFDIUFHDSUFHDSUHFDSIULFGDSIFHDLS

Still, I wonder why it is

♥