if i could see the future and how this plays out, i bet it's better than where we are now, but after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why.


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okay so i guess i started this blog because i half wanted to improve my english, and half wanted to delve deeper into my erm.. deeper side. but that seems to have failed so far.
sighs
she's been thinking a bit recently, probably because she's got a lot of free time on her hands.

and because she gets bored at work.
she's decided she can't fabricate this dichotomy anymore.
they're all gonna split up for sure.

she knows it shouldn't make a difference, seeing that they're all from different places anyway so why should different unis matter?

something else has been bothering her lately, well not so much now but .
what the fk happened ?
somebody got in between and it's made her think everything over.
thank god she didn't get too involved.
she's glad that nobody got hurt.
nobody except her and her sanity, but that doesn't matter.
as long as nobody else got hurt.
now she regrets not even trying.
and for that she's unbelievably sorry.

the timing always sucked balls.

she's so goddamn selfish too
after what happened.. she decided to stop everything.
ffs !
sometimes she'd get angry at what happened; but she shouldn't, couldn't.
there shouldn't be anything to be angry about in the first place.

think of the future, forget the past.. right?

she concludes.