The end of an era

It's started, and I'm not just talking about my exams.
:/
Anywho on to less ambiguity, this'll be my last post everrrrrrrr on this blog (:

But before I begin to start the intro to the end, it was my birthday a couple of days ago!
I HAVE NOW BEEN ALIVE FOR A MIGHTY NINETEEN YEARS.
HO HO HO.
Unfortunately, as we're all in the midst of an evil tyranny of exams, it was a day spent studying. But hey, adding more to your knowledge bank is the only thing money can't buy, so it's got to be the best present ever right? ehhehe!

On this very interesting day, I actually had a little visit from two pesky children a.k.a. JZ and G at midnight.
Sweetieeeess they are haha (:
Then I had another visit from JZ and Viktor later on in the last hours of the day.
ROAR.
Thanks for making me feel special guys ♥!
Each and every birthday message means a lot to me, even if it's a couple of words, and it doesn't matter if it's late either, because belated messages make my birthday even longer than the usual 24 hours xD



So I was initially going to close this blog so that so no one would ever be able to read my ramblings ever, ever, ever, ever. It's like this place wouldn't even exist!
But then that'll be like deleting all of the memories I've recorded in the last year and a bit, ever since I ended highschool. And I don't want to deprive the awesomeness this blog has been able to provide to the internet world either, so ultimately the only way to solve this dilemma is to shout out in my head... the next three words.. IT'S STAYING, BEETCHES.

Hmm reasons to close this?
At first I couldn't really put an exact finger on it, but in explaining it to my friend, words started shietting out of nowhere and here is, I believe an adequate response to the question.

[12:28:33 AM] aMANDA Lalala: but everytime i go back onto there, i feel like i have to assume another identity when i write stuff because it's as if the blog already has it's own style of posts that i have to adhere to
[12:28:50 AM] aMANDA Lalala: and lately i haven't been able to write how i used to anymore

I'm not quite sure if any of that makes sense to you guys, and it's okay if it doesn't.
I think I've just not been me lately, or feeling like myself.. MAYBE I'M MATURING.
OH NO. ADULTHOOD IS NOW HERE. SADFACE.
Or it could just be the exam stress.
HMMMMZOR, IN WHICH CASE AFTER THE EXAMS I'LL BE BLOG-LESS AND EVEN MORE SAD.
..AHH SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHII.....

So to anyone who stumbles upon this, I'm sorry but you simply HAVE to read all of my posts from the beginning and turn its stories into legends about how a little, passive and inhibitive girl turned into a strong, mighty, fearsome and mystical warrior known as the awesome amanda, (or any other ass-kicking name you guys can think of).

MAKE THEM INTO GOOD STORIES WHERE I FLY IN WITH MR. T ON A HELICOPTER, OKAY?
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.

HAHAHAAHAHAAAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAAUHDSOIUFHUIHADFHAIUOFHDSIUFSIGFULDSGHFILUDSHFIULDSHFIUGDSLIFUDSFHSDIUFHD
But seriously, guys.
You have to do it.

GOODBYE DEAR LOVERS, STALKERS, FRIENDS AND RANDOM PEOPLE FROM EVERYWHERE.
And welcome to my blog.

BAI(forever).